Puddles...

[aquabean]

It always rains on my birthday. This is a good thing though. In a place as dry as Southern California can be this kind of weather is needed. Without it even the desert plants shrivel and die. This morning was bright, sunny, but then the clouds rolled in and the afternoons was heavy with an oppressive darkness. But it's raining now, and everything feels better. Weighted differently, clean, new.

The headache is gone, thanks in part to lunch. The caffeine in my Coke probably didn't hurt either. It was a quiet affair, lunch, mostly because all three of us were starving. But on the way home I was able to wax philosophical on the state of the world at large and those things which are a part of living in a "First World" country. Conclusion: Even if our traffic is bad, we take our infrastructure for granted.

Living in an office is a surreal experience. Came back from Wings and Things to find that my cubicle had been decorated by the HR ladies. Rather resembles a circus tent, in fact. There's even this crazy sort of crepe-paper rainbow coloured disco ball hanging from the ceiling. *grins* I couldn't help but feel loved. There are streamers and weird decorations all over the desk and hanging from the ceiling -- someone even found leftover Christmas decorations, because they know I dig the random.

Checked the flist after lunch too...and...*hugs flist* You guys are brilliant.

karose wrote something for nightfallrising and myself that...*sighs* Hit home is in this incredible way, is all. Got that good tight feeling in my chest.

Then yuki1013 drew... well, just go look. I sat here for a long moment looking at it and...didn't want to have to explain to anyone why I was sitting here with tears in my eyes, but this was good too. Really good.

And ranalore made me a birthday card and sent me an email Saiyukie drabble. wildelamassu says she's sending stuff in the mail (like REAL mail *boggles*) and KA with the standies, and then snowyheart wrote a fic for Night and I too, even with all her school work, and -- *overwhelmed*...

I sound like such a sap. *grins* I am such a sap. But now, without the headache, I can been the big ball of fuzz I usually am, and...you guys are just too good to me.

pvt_tiger sent me an email that managed to register even before lunch though...

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.
We ask ourselves, "Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?"
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others.*

*She said she got from the wall of the woman in the cubicle next to her. I guess sometimes the things you need to hear come from unexpected places after all.

Comments

[ranalore.livejournal.com]

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

You know, I was actually thinking about this quote a week or so ago, pondering why Saiyuki has so totally eaten my brain (aside from the fact that the boys are all hawt and I have a yay demons! reflex). I think Sanzo's terrified of succeeding. Not just succeeding, but outstripping what he remembers of Houmyuu's power (boy, I hope I spelled that right). Of course, I think he's destined to, considering he started out as a god.

I think this basic human fear is actualized in the duality of Goku. He is so powerful Heaven fears him, and calls him heretic because his power is not theirs. He willingly wears the limiter to keep himself in check. The thing is, as Eliza and I were discussing last night, it's possible he wouldn't be quite so feral as the Saiten Teisei (again, I'm probably not spelling this right, these names just aren't used enough to stick in my brain as well) if he integrated himself a little better. Goku is so very chipper and upbeat and whatnot, and maybe rage is all he allows his other self to feel. Or, more accurately, rage is one of the negative emotions he doesn't allow his limited self to feel. Quite literally, a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde scenario.

All of which is completely beside the point, but I thought you might get a kick out of it. *hugs* Hope your birthday is going fabulously.

[permetaform]

::gives birthday glomps of massive bigness::

btw, revised cover will be up for your perusal by morning =D

[runefallstar.livejournal.com]

Revised cover received, will send email this evening.

*grins*

You're brilliant!

Godspell

[nightfallrising.livejournal.com]

Wherefore, O men of Athens, I say to you
Therefore, acquit me or not
But whichever you do
I shall never alter my ways
Never adjust my approach to this maze
Never reform till the end of my days
Even if I have to die many times.

---

God is apprehended by imagination, intuition, reason, touch, opininon, sense, and name
And so on
While on quite the other hand we find we can't begin to understand hir so to some it seems a shame to go on
But se is all things in all
And se is nothing in any
Se is often found in one thing small
Conversely se is often missed in many

---

God endows us with sense and intellect
God endows us with reason we neglect
And despite the abolition by the current Inquisition
Of any intuition that they don't choose
When it comes to God, I find
I can't believe that Se designed
A human being with a mind he's not supposed to use.

---

The rise of man was natural and inevitable
Man is so levitable
Instead of admiring man's filling of the void
We should rather be surprised that God had man so tyrranized
The decline of Rome was natural and explicable
Man is despicable
Instead of inquiring why Rome was destroyed
We should rather be aghast
That up we're raised, that down we're cast
That Rome remained so strong, so long.

---

Nothing is true unless observed by you
Atheistic existentialism, which I represent, is more coherent; I do belive it.
The glory of god we are born to make manifest.
There is no such thing as human nature, not in all or few men, since there is no god to conceive it.
The glory of god we are born to make manifest.

Re: Godspell

[runefallstar.livejournal.com]

*hugs*