I spend a lot of time working very hard so no one knows that I'm quietly having a nervous breakdown on the inside. In college I flunked out at one point.
I got fired today because I can't focus long enough to really get work done. It's insane that something I can't seem to get past can do this to my brain. And now my life.
*hugs* Sometimes things aren't get-over-able on one's own. History, mind-set, life in general: sometimes they can each be a wall you can't dig under, climb over or knock down without the help of a friend with heavy machinery. This is not a failing, so much as an inevitable part of being human, in my opinion. If you can't get over it alone (and mercy knows you seem to have tried), find the person with the backhoe, crane, and earthmover to help you, you know?
Really, I shouldn't spout advice unasked for. But honestly I don't think you're a failure and I really hope life picks up for you a bit soon. You deserve a smile or five. =) Hang in there, lady.
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Date: 2006-07-11 03:51 am (UTC)I got fired today because I can't focus long enough to really get work done. It's insane that something I can't seem to get past can do this to my brain. And now my life.
Eh heh.
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Date: 2006-07-15 03:27 am (UTC)Really, I shouldn't spout advice unasked for. But honestly I don't think you're a failure and I really hope life picks up for you a bit soon. You deserve a smile or five. =) Hang in there, lady.