Sometimes *still grinning* I just like to check and see if people are paying attention :-P
*snerks* *clears throat* I apologize for any residual evilness on my part. Work today is...ummm...making me crazy? Yes, that works.
Renders her even more of an out-worldly creature, as she was is to Hakkai, whose eyes we use to look at her.
Yes. Exactly. I think that's why I framed it in the context of "would." I kept wanting to change it, to make it either more firmly past tense -- a specific scene that had already happen -- or more present tense -- a scene that we got to watch unfold. But really? This isn't something that would have happened. Something like it might have, but really? This is all about Hakkai remembering a lot of somethings. A million different moments all blended together, to create the Kannan he wants to remember. Hakkai is one of those narrators you could never trust. His version of events, when it involves one of the people he loves, would always be skewed. He would always want them to be something more, something better than they were.
Makes me think...perhaps part of the reason that Kannan ended up on such a high pedestal was because he, after the fact, needed a reason for her to leave him. Maybe her being "too good for this world," or something similar, was one of the best excuses he could make himself believe.
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Date: 2004-12-20 02:04 pm (UTC)Sometimes *still grinning* I just like to check and see if people are paying attention :-P
*snerks* *clears throat* I apologize for any residual evilness on my part. Work today is...ummm...making me crazy? Yes, that works.
Renders her even more of an out-worldly creature, as she was is to Hakkai, whose eyes we use to look at her.
Yes. Exactly. I think that's why I framed it in the context of "would." I kept wanting to change it, to make it either more firmly past tense -- a specific scene that had already happen -- or more present tense -- a scene that we got to watch unfold. But really? This isn't something that would have happened. Something like it might have, but really? This is all about Hakkai remembering a lot of somethings. A million different moments all blended together, to create the Kannan he wants to remember. Hakkai is one of those narrators you could never trust. His version of events, when it involves one of the people he loves, would always be skewed. He would always want them to be something more, something better than they were.
Makes me think...perhaps part of the reason that Kannan ended up on such a high pedestal was because he, after the fact, needed a reason for her to leave him. Maybe her being "too good for this world," or something similar, was one of the best excuses he could make himself believe.